Ashamed

Ashamed
I'm always ashamed
to be who I think I am
I try to hide it
force myself to deny it
cause no one wants me
at least who I really am
to most just an obligation
to others a convenience
to some I'm even a project
always changing
no time to figure me out
ashamed to be
ashamed to want to be heard
is it ok to hurt?
I try to shut it off
and most days I succeed
so I'm not real
but they don't care
they can't even realize
I'm really just a shadow
shifting, changing
ashamed to be real
ashamed to just feel
but who cares I'm not even here