Circus Ride

and it'll all crumble down
like a cheap circus ride

and we must go on smiling
like those silly little clowns
with there painted on grins
that hide away there sins

cause its time to go and play
at the carnival today
for the cheap rides
and mediocre thrills

the parade is today
and we'll all go out and wave
with are painted on grins
as it all crumbles down

I wonder

I wonder what I'd do if the bleeding didn't stop

would I just watch as it flows and goes with it my soul?

Would I panic and react and try and keep myself tethered to the ground?

Or would I quietly slip out of this life to the next?

I wonder I wonder..

wrote it in 06

and even with your broken soul you carry on like nothings wrong. Your smile empty your eyes cold, but no one seems to notice. Which is the biggest shame of all.

Frost

the seasons change

and the frost drifts away

I shiver though it has nothing to do with the cold

I wish the frost was still near

but I can feel the chill settling in

heavy on my heart

and achingly present all around me

I wish for the lighthearted frost

to be near me once more

but the frost is gone

and the chill settles over me

Unsure

Not really sure what's going on anymore.

Tired of games and pretenses.

I'm done playing, no more tricks.

It's just me now and thats ok.

I'm lonely but not as lonely as i was,

when I thought I had everything.

I deserve it all too spoiled to share.

I'll be strong and soldier on.

Though often I wish you were near.

I'll deal and learn to feel.

Maybe one day you'll let me be my spoiled self.

So I'm fine better then I was,

though a little worse for ware.

I can make it if I must.

because I deserve it all.

And fully willing to wait for who ever it may be.

FML

alone

I'm cold and lonely

with only myself to blame

my heart aches

and i push it down

my dreams stir it around

and i knock it down

I'm empty, hollow

not sure I care anymore

i'm broken and damaged

not sure it matters anymore

I'm smiling on the outside

but burning within

no one notices

no one's let in

I'm alone

though i suppose

you wouldn't know