Inside out

I'm burning from the inside out

screaming inside these walls

falling apart with nothing to hold me together

The fire consumes me and no one sees the flames

The shouting fills my ears but no others hear me

I try carefully to pick up the pieces

only to drop them and watch as they shatter further

The smoke fills my senses, but i've grown numb to this

My throat holds no more screams, even my voice has shattered

Pieces of my self slip through my fingers, I no longer care to hold on

Drive Faster

And as you cry all i can do is drive faster

press the petal to the floor

as your tears fall faster

flying into the night

your heartbreaking anguish

pushes us ever faster

I speed down the street

as you sit unblinkingly silent

the quiet even louder then your screams

And as you sit there and cry

I die a little inside

watching you break into pieces

All I can do is drive faster...

Purchase

I'm looking for purchase on sunken earth

searching for something to hold on to

reaching for something tangible

But my feet just can't catch hold

and my hands keep coming up empty

what I need always just out of reach

So I stumble and fall

clench my fists to my side

pull my reach back in defeat

I'm looking for purchase on sunken earth

and I find myself falling forward...

cagged bird

heart hammering

like that of a frightened bird

banging against it's cage

until it's heart explodes

panic grips me

squeezing me tight

can't breathe

gotta escape from here

have to flee

leaving behind my dignity

heart still racing

running and running

and just like the bird

my heart explodes...

You

You are what makes these eyes sparkle

lighting up when just the thought of you appears

whithout you they shine hollow and empty

You are what makes this voice rise

rolling out of me like crashing waves

without you it cracks and strains

you are what makes my mouth smile

lifting at the corners with every joke you share

without you it curls falsely without meaning

you are what makes this heart beat

thumping out your name with every pump of blood

without you it shrivels and dies...

You are what makes these eyes sparkle

Bleach

I taste bleach under my finger nails

the taste of it bitter in my mouth

the grime from the scrubbing

finally washed from them

brittle nails bent and broken

from the cleaning of the filth

filled with the mess

that I scrapped from here

So I cut them short

uneven and rough

smoothed down by the scrubbing

still tasting of bleach

making me wonder idly

how much i'd have to drink to die

I taste bleach under my fingernails

missing you

my soul is crying

my heart is racing

my palms are sweating

missing you

is the hardest thing

I've ever been through

my feet are racing

my mind is reeling

my chest is pounding

counting the hours

days, months

till I see your face again

my heart is aching

my eyes cry dry

my soul reaches out for yours

I need you

hold me close

and don't let go